I just finished my 9 month study group. Let me just say that if you are at all interested in reading the Bible or are skeptical and wish you knew a little more about it without pressure, BSF is a good way, and they are all over the world. I am part of a denomination and am very decidedly Christian, but if I weren't and just wanted to satisfy my curiosity, I would feel no less welcomed there. Anyway, we met in a group of varied ages and ethnic backgrounds and read through one book of the Bible during the school year and talk about what we think the text means. I wrote all of that to say this:
And I read it with a good deal of understanding. That's a book that is important to anyone living in a Judeo-Christian influenced society. It's considered a bigtime downer by lots of people, and any time I tried to read it in the past, all the chapters just seemed to merge and look the same to me.
But there's one passage that meant a lot to me years ago- Isaiah 61. When I got to that part last week, I noticed, written in tiny print in the margin, were the words: "was heavy, 2001."
(Word, day 125)
I'm not really sure if I have anywhere else to go with this post. I just wanted to remind myself that I was very heavy and now I don't feel that way. Somewhere a couple of years ago it shifted and I am so grateful. I can laugh when I once would have been very worried.
No man, no job, no sense of being needed, no amount of stuff got me here. I believe it was reading this book- reading it and applying it -that has me in better shape a decade later than when I started. I have so junked up the margins with revealing phrases about my life and questions about the text at different times. It is much more personal than any marks I made in The Odyssey or Walden. Sometimes there's a "Why?", or just a big question mark, or a "Huh?" as later proof that I have grown. (And I still have lots of "Huhs?" today to stand as future reminders.)